We’re off to Sin City. This is the last run of our market trips until the fall. I think today about killed me when it came time for me to leave the house. I leaned down to kiss Jaylee goodbye, and for once she had tears in her eyes as I told her that she had to take care of daddy and charley, they were in bed with the flu, and Sarah (our baby sitter) would be there in an about an hour. She hugged me so tight… She never cares if I leave. It’s usually bye mom and see-ya when you get back. I am so lucky to have such great kids. I tell them all the time it’s great to miss the ones you love. It makes you appreciate them more, or at lest that is what I have been telling myself…but now I say bullshit…
This week our house is finally finished after almost 5 months of remodeling. It has been a long time since I have been home. I think I might be trading in my gypsy card for a homebody card instead…
I really don’t have any advice about today other than it SUCKED. I have been stopped so many times by mom’s that read my blogs and they tell me thank you for sharing because they have the same feelings that I have, and it SUCKS for all of us! I have to look at the positive in all of this though, I am raising my girls with having a career that I love, and there is always is a price you have to pay. There is a price for anything in life. What are you willing to pay for what you want? I know Gypsy Soule could be even better and bigger, but Amy and I try to keep the balance of work and our family life, although some days it doesn’t feel like it. The minute my feet hit the ground when I get back to Texas this Friday I will soon become a volleyball and dance mom and I can’t wait!!! My girls live to make their mom and dad proud, but they pick things they love to do and they have passion about them… just like my parents taught me to do.
As bad as my heart hurts, and I am sick to my stomach that I had to leave, I have to look forward to getting to Vegas to see my mom that will be there. Because we live so far apart from each other, she is happy to see me. However, I have to remember that when its time for us to say goodbye to each other, she feels the same sadness I feel when I have to leave my two girls also…kind of twisted I guess…
So for today there is always something to be thankful for and maybe a little lesson in there about life as well. With hurt and pain, God will always bring in the light of something good.